Dear Andrea

October 24, 2019

I love you too
Don’t fuck up my hair
I can’t believe you almost fisted me to today
That was great
I see a little duck’s head
Just separate under the sand
Are you really gonna read that?
I mean, seriously, honey
And the ocean wooshes in
Your jabby girlfriend
ka-tuum, poof, kaplash
and rolling your pants high
and the sea hits the rocks
and the seagulls hop
Man, am I in love

Eileen Myles

Good writing advice

June 2, 2019

Don’t write drunk

Eileen Myles
Interview in the Paris Review Fall 2015

A Gift for You

November 12, 2017

around 530 is
a beautiful peaceful
you can just
hear the dog
David lifts his smoke
to his
lips forever
dangling chain
in the middle
of everything
bout the top shelf
or so. The party
at which
I sd that’s my col-
works and every
stared my home
was so small
is it
I’m not particularly
into the task
of humility
at the moment
but I’m
not against
it’s like that
beach ball
on a tiny

I think of as
with the larger
one on a
floating in air
my home
is large
love made it
large once
not to
get all
John Wieners
& believe
me love made
it small
this place
only had
sex unlike
the house
I love a house
I fear a house
a house never
gets laid
frankly who
doesn’t like
a hotel
I live in a
room a personal
one. A young
person very
much like me
was brutal
no personal
please it was
home perfect
for a party
now I’m
going fast. How
the description
of a drug
a room
& changes
the room
with going
say thus
if you
want to go
slow. To drink
the wrong
thing for a
for you
to lick my
& your

I met a dog
once, I
met a
dog named Alan
the calm
person writing
her calm
now & then
she shows
her sacred
she opens
her chest &
a monkey
is taking
a shit
on his
thing. You didn’t
know I
had so
much inside
me buckets
of malice
of peace
I don’t want
to go
all library
on you
now like
my mother
the mother of
god or
my brother
Jack who
sat in
a deck
of cards
when she squeezes
in getting
cozy I know
less what
I want
to say. I can open
an entire

room comes
out each
moment that’s
what I mean
not things
widen &
flow there’s
no purpose
to this.

Eileen Myles

hated reading work by women

January 13, 2017


I just knew in a quiet way I was ruined. If I agreed to be female. There was so much evidence on the screen and in books. I read Doris Lessing in literature class and that depressed the shit out of me too. I just hated reading work by women or about women because it always added up the same. Loss of self, endless self-abnegation even as the female was trying to be an artist, she wound up pregnant, desperate, waiting on some man. A Marxist guy, perhaps. When would it end.”

Eileen Myles
Foreword to I Love Dick by Chris Kraus

My lover’s pussy…

April 10, 2016


I always put my pussy in the middle of trees like a waterfall, like a doorway to God, like a flock of birds. I always put my lover’s cunt on the crest of a wave, like a flag that I can pledge my allegiance to. This is my country. Here when we’re alone in public. My lover’s pussy is a badge, is a nightstick, is a helmet, is a deer’s face, is a handful of flowers, is a waterfall, is a river of blood, is a Bible, is a hurricane, is a soothsayer.

Eileen Myles
poem for Jill Soloway’s Amazon TV series Transparent


Is it so great for women now? I’m not convinced. We can disregard the media but nonetheless its propaganda surrounds us…When people talk about my work they talk about whether or not it’s memoir. They talk about genre. They don’t even want to talk about my writing. I have lots of good answers, but they just can’t decide what I’m doing. Like I signed up to listen to them muse. It’s so about being female. They just can’t trust that I know what I’m doing. I mean, to be this far in your life and to be in such an arena of specialty and to be endlessly questioned like you’re the secretary. Of course. How would I know what art is? Some guy interviewed me and he clearly hadn’t read my book, and he asked me why I didn’t think it was memoir. I told him in great detail and very carefully and wisely I thought and then he said “Got it.” Like impatiently, like would I please shut up. I mean he hadn’t read it. But he was impatient with me. I think I’m hardly more than a symptom. It’s not so good. I guess I’m wondering why anyone thinks I’m a woman. I think that’s more interesting. I wonder why I should even be interviewed as a woman. If they can decide what my book is why can’t I decide what I am? I mean I know I can in our queer world—that’s a given—but in the literary world…Since a woman is one who “doesn’t know,” why shouldn’t we just refuse our gender? What would be the answer? Rape?


Eileen Myles

September 13, 2015

40th Street

August 19, 2015


I’d like
to say

that when
I change

the pot
doesn’t know
it for
a few

it’s awaiting
the tempo
of French
espresso &
El Pico
is back

it’s inexplicable
the glass pot

is dulled

so wake
me up
with your

in a few
days you’ll
be shaped
like this
& a new

Be patient
pot. Advance
the parade.

Eileen Myles

Peanut Butter

August 17, 2015

I am always hungry
& wanting to have
sex. This is a fact.
If you get right
down to it the new
unprocessed peanut
butter is no damn
good & you should
buy it in a jar as
always in the
largest supermarket
you know. And
I am an enemy
of change, as
you know. All
the things I
embrace as new
are in
fact old things,
re-released: swimming,
the sensation of
being dirty in
body and mind
summer as a
time to do
nothing and make
no money. Prayer
as a last re-
sort. Pleasure
as a means,
and then a
means again
with no ends
in sight. I am
absolutely in opposition
to all kinds of
goals. I have
no desire to know
where this, anything
is getting me.
When the water
boils I get
a cup of tea.
Accidentally I
read all the
works of Proust.
It was summer
I was there
so was he. I
write because
I would like
to be used for
years after
my death. Not
only my body
will be compost
but the thoughts
I left during
my life. During
my life I was
a woman with
hazel eyes. Out
the window
is a crooked
silo. Parts
of your
body I think
of as stripes
which I have
learned to
love along. We
swim naked
in ponds &
I write be-
hind your
back. My thoughts
about you are
not exactly
forbidden, but
exalted because
they are useless,
not intended
to get you
because I have
you & you love
me. It’s more
like a playground
where I play
with my reflection
of you until
you come back
and into the
real you I
get to sink
my teeth. With
you I know how
to relax. &
so I work
behind your
back. Which
is lovely.
is out of control
you tell me &
that’s what’s so
good about
it. I’m immoderately
in love with you,
knocked out by
all your new
white hair

why shouldn’t
I have always
known be the
very best there
is. I love
you from my
starting back
there when
one day was
just like the
rest, random
growth and
breezes, constant
love, a sand-
wich in the
middle of
a tiny step
in the vastly
path of
the Sun. I
squint. I
wink. I
take the

Eileen Myles


Laughing screams of sex wafted in from the apartment directly across from my window – Tony’s German boy was in town this weekend. Spank spank. Tomorrow Tony’d be talking about what they did. I tried to explain I wasn’t that cool when he had me over for tea . You’re a dyke, he teased. Um, no. Really! I felt like I was the most normal person in the whole world because I grew up in Boston, didn’t do drugs and had to pay my rent. I had a bottom line and it wasn’t even food, but once food was gone, I began the scramble to keep cigarettes and coffee in the picture, but finally absolutely rent. Tony told me he sucked the landlord’s cock to pay his. You could probably do it too, he winked. Our landlord had an office on the first floor and he had a wide straw hat with a striped band and he wore fat ties and a striped double-breasted jacket and generally exuded an aura of hip businessman. Some college professors also had this look. Our rent was so cheap. It seemed kind of cool to have a building full of sluts. Everyone helping each other. I kind of admired him for that. But when he said my name in this leading way: hello Miss Myles do you have something for me, I kind of froze. It was like a multiple choice test.

Eileen Myles, Inferno