you still want it

October 2, 2018

You want to love him in a way, in a way that didn’t hurt & now you know that isn’t love at all. Sometimes, you still want it. Meanwhile, all the blue in the world is burning, even if you won’t look at it.

Yves Olade
Something I’d Lie About

Destroy

September 9, 2018

I want someone who will destroy and be destroyed by me.

Jeanette Winterson
Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit

She Said

August 28, 2018

She said she will,
but doesn’t mean she wants too.
She said she can,
but doesn’t mean she needs too.
She said “not now”
But it didn’t stop you.

Jillian McLean

unspeakable intimacies

April 19, 2018

 

She wanted unspeakable intimacies. She wanted to have him, utterly, finally to have him as her own, oh, so unspeakably, in intimacy. To drink him down – ah, like a life-draught.

D.H. Lawrence
Women in Love

Want

May 23, 2017

I want to fall asleep with you,
and I could care less
whether it is in
layers upon layers
of clothing
or only our skin –
all I really want is to wake up
not knowing
where I end and you begin.

Beau Taplin

Neanderthal lullaby…

March 11, 2016

disunity

Diary 11th March

CDs scattered over the unmade bed and my guitar resting on the chair in the corner. Last night the house was filled with smooth jazz sounds that faded somewhere beyond midnight into sleep. When I woke, I watched you sleeping. I wondered what you did to that other person I met all those years ago? They had your hands and voice. Your eyes…

They had your feckin’ temper, too!

But where the hell did they go…?

Then I think of all the shit-storms we’ve weathered together. Most things seem to get rubbed smooth by time, by regret – but not us! Remember our so called friends? What they said about us, way back then?

“It can’t last…She’s a bad un…You’ll both be sorry…!”

‘To hell with them,’ we said, in the nicest possible way. And together we were like some noir tableau, eyeball-to-eyeball with our sin, ready to burn down the world…

Remember?
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Throughout his life H G Wells championed the cause of a world government. He projected it in “The Shape of Things to Come” as a world council of scientists, a benevolent dictatorship that abolishes all religion and outlaws war. Earlier, in “Anticipations” Wells predicted the “unification” of English speaking states into “a New Republic dominating the world”, and which ultimately becomes the basis of a new world state. In “The Open Conspiracy” he advocates a “world commonwealth” governed benevolently by a scientific elite. In “The New World Order” Wells outlined his plans for the creation of such a “World Government”.

H G admitted that the establishment of such a government would be difficult. It would have to be carried out piecemeal and over a long period of time. Yet he saw it as the only hope for humankind. A world state would abolish war and want; nationalism would become redundant, a thing of the past; universal education would abolish ignorance. Organised religion would be cast aside, thus ending centuries of religious conflict.

Wells was indeed a prophet – one listened to attentively by large audiences…listened to but then ignored! It is the fate of prophets.

Today we still have national boundaries, international antagonisms occur with depressing regularity. The UN is possibly the nearest we’ve come to a “World Government”, but only as the barest of beginnings. We have the EU, of course. It grows year on year…It has its own currency, the Euro, although not all member states use that…

Many advocates of the “Federated States of Europe” have adopted and adapted ideas originally propounded by Wells. Would World Government end war? There are those who think the EU has prevented wars…certainly one of the foundation stones of the EU was ‘make war unthinkable and materially impossible”.

In 1991 there was war in Slovenia; 1991 to 95 there was the Croatian War of Independence; 1992 to 95 there was the Bosnian war; 1998 to 1999 there was the Kosovo war; 1999 to 2001 there was Insurgency in the Preševo Valley with conflict between Yugoslavia and Albanian insurgents; 2001 there was insurgency in the Republic of Macedonia, an armed conflict between the ethnic Albanian National Liberation Army and the security forces of the Republic of Macedonia. The EU failed abysmally to react to these conflicts in the Balkans and UN peacekeepers from the Netherlands failed to prevent the Srebrenica massacre, “the largest mass murder in Europe since the second world war”.

So has the EU made war materially impossible…?

Britain and France are two of the world’s largest suppliers of military hardware…both countries have engaged in numerous conflicts around the globe in the past decade.

What about want? Has the EU abolished want?

Since 2007 unemployment has consistently risen in those countries that had adopted the Euro. One in five under-25s in the European Union labour force is currently unemployed, with the figures particularly dire in the south. Poor growth, widespread austerity programmes and the winding up of job-creating stimulus measures threaten further unemployment overall.

In Portugal, where the youth unemployment rate stands at 27%, some 40% of 18- to 30-year-olds say they would consider emigrating for employment reasons. In some countries, such as Italy, a constant brain-drain is one more depressing symptom of a stagnant economy. In Ireland, where discouragement among young workers has shot up since 2005, migration has doubled over the same period, with most of the departed aged between 20 and 35.

A report on poverty published (19th Feb 2016) by Caritas Europa states it found disturbing levels of deprivation in the seven EU countries worst hit by the economic crisis: Cyprus, Greece, Ireland, Italy, Portugal, Romania and Spain. According to the report, almost half of Bulgarians (48%) and more than 40% of Romanians are currently at risk of poverty.

In fourteen out of the EU’s 28 member states, one in three children are considered to be living in poverty.

The Caritas figures are broadly confirmed by the EU’s official statistical agency, Eurostat, which ascertained that one in four citizens were at risk of poverty and social exclusion.

So, despite the overall wealth of the European Union, poverty is still at a relatively high level and growing. (yet I seem to recall the EU in 2005 made it one of their aims to abolish poverty by 2010?).

Has the EU abolished want…not yet, it hasn’t.

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Decide what you want. Believe you can have it. Believe you deserve it and believe it’s possible for you. And then close your eyes every day for several minutes, and visualize having what you already want, feeling the feelings of already having it. Come out of that and focus on what you’re grateful for already, and really enjoy it. Then go into your day and release it to the Universe and trust that the Universe will figure out how to manifest it.

Jack Canfield